Stories

 A REFUGEE WOMAN'S  STORY.

 

No one knows my Story
No one knows how many tears I cry
No one knows in which bushes I lay
No one knows and my story is forgotten.

I lost my babies in the war
I lost my husband in the war
I lost all my family in the war
Above all
I lost my dignity in the war

I am scarred for life

I had to cook for the same soldiers who dashed my babies against a stone.

I was forced to lie with the same soldiers,
THE very same soldiers who put a gun to the head of my beloved!

Ah ah who knows my story?
Ah ah hear my story
Ah ah lest I die and no one knows my story
Ah ah I am a women, a wife, a mother and a whore

I have borne six babies and have none left
I have given my body in love
I have given my body in hate
I have given my body in war till I had no honor left

I am a war prostitute
I am a war cook
I had to cook for the very same soldiers who killed
Little Anna
Little Angelika
Little Martha
Little Julianna
Little Kivala
Little Koyella
Little Mumbua
Little Samba
Little Diallo

The very same soldiers who killed my beloved and your beloved

My children are gone
My husband is gone
My dignity is gone
But my strength and resilience has stayed.

The war is over and I am Free!
I am found home and haven in a strange land!
I am here to tell my story to fight for those left behind


Sisters together we can fight to stop every form of war and injustice.

Your children died in the war so did mine
Your beloved died in the war so did mine
You gave your body in the war so did I !
That’s why I call you sisters!

JESUS RESCUED MY LIFE      

This story's aim is to give a testimony of how believing in God the Father, (Lord of Hosts, Jehovah God, God of Abraham, Isaac and Jacob), Our Lord Jesus Christ, and the Holy Spirit has saved my life from various problems which I had started to experience a few years ago.I could have died or perished but the blood of Jesus Christ has saved me, my family which includes all people of God whom I have been able to share about Jesus with. My life is a lining testimony of the fact that Jesus our Lord is our saviour; who died and rose from the death that we might saved.

According to John 3:16 which says: For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life.   Even though I was a Christian and have been a Christian since young, but I was not loving God with all my heart, all my soul, all my strength and mind and loving my neighbour like myself according to Luke 10 verse 27 in the Bible where God says 27.So he answered and said, "You shall love the Lord your God with all your heart, with all your soul, with all your strength, and with all your mind, and "your neighbour as yourself".  

Some of the problems I experienced were thinking evil, feeling isolated, marital problems; then I felt that my husband was abusing me emotionally. I am sure he must have been feeling the same; because the problems were felt by both of us.I also had relationship problems with other people, experienced fear, anxiety, was deeply worried, etc. I also experienced housing problems for a few days; and my children were taken into care for one night.

Furthermore, I had financial problems which led to more domestic problems.   At some point in time, I was studying mental health nursing, when I started to see situations around me which I felt uncomfortable with.I realised that as a student or if you worked in the system, you are not allowed to talk to people about Jesus Christ and yet I felt that it is Jesus who truly heals any kind of problems or disease; and He is the one who gives faith and hope.

I started to see that a lot of people were losing hope and wanting to commit suicide; and others committing suicide.This disturbed me a lot, but during this time I felt powerless to challenge these things until one day, when I was taken to the mental hospital.  

One of the reasons I was taken into the mental hospital was that I was praying in the garden, and they came up with some things which I felt it was injustice. I was taken to hospital because in my thinking I had left my husband due to the problems I was experiencing at home; thereby disobeying God.Now leaving my husband was unsound mind, because our God loves marriage between a man and a woman and family is the basis of the church.  

When I went into the hospital, it was like the enemy had come in like a flood; because my faith as a Christian was tested to maximum limit, but I thank God for the Holy Spirit, because he is our comforter and he helps us in trouble and at all times. I was not listened to by the mental health system at first, and that’s when I decided to continue to follow Jesus.  

While in the hospital, I told them that Jesus is the healer of mental health illnesses as they call them; but in the Bible, it is unsound mind. As a Christian, I decided that I will do God's will; following Him as He says in the Bible.It was the Bible through the Holy Spirit who gave me answers when I would go to meetings with the Psychiatrist.They decided to put me on medications despite my protests that it was my God who has healed me.  

In the mental hospital, if you talk about God, the longer you stay in hospital, and the more they would say that you have a mental illness.Anyway, God gave me the power to tell them about the injustices that I saw as a student as well as a patient.I realised that there were contradictions of what I was being taught in class as a student and to what actually happens. I also realised that I was being persecuted because I was a Christian and I was even asked not to be involved in the things of the church if I was being persecuted; I refused and told them that I will continue to believe in my God.When you are there it is only your God who will get you out and nothing else.What was happening was a clash between kingdoms, and Jesus’ kingdom is a winner. 

 Before hand, no man could prevent me from going to the hospital; but I thank God that I went in there, because I have learnt things I did not know about. In addition, God has revealed to me how people get a sound mind through the word of God, Jesus Christ and the Holy Spirit. The more I was oppressed by the mental health system, the more I sought my God and He heard my cry.   When you believe in God, Jesus, and the Holy Spirit no power or principality can oppress you.

There will come a time when all problems will go away, and even if you encounter problems, they do not trouble you because you know how to fight them using the word of God as referred to in Ephesians 6 verses 10 -18; where God says:

10.“Finally, my brethren, be strong in the Lord and in the power of His might.

11. Put on the whole armour of God, that you may be able to stand against the wiles of the devil.

12. For we do not wrestle against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this age, against spiritual hosts of wickedness in the heavenly places.

13. Therefore take up the whole armour of God, that you may be able to withstand in the evil day, and having done all, to stand.

14.Stand therefore, having girded your waist with with truth, having put on the breastplate of righteousness,

15. and having shod your feet with the preparation of the gospel of peace,

16. above all, taking the shield of faith with which you will be able to quench all the fiery darts of the wicked one. 17. And take the helmet of salvation, and the sword of the spirit, which is the word of God.

18. Praying always with all prayer and supplication in the spirit, being watchful to this end with all perseverance and supplication for all the saints.  

I should also mention that just before I went into hospital I experienced that God was asking me to seek his kingdom and righteousness according to the Bible in Mathew 6 verse 33 where God says " But seek you first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these other things will be added to you.God also said to me through 2 Chronicles 7 verse 14, where God says

" If my people who are called by my name will humble themselves, and pray and seek my face, and turn from their wicked ways, then I will hear from heaven, and will forgive their sin and heal their land."   When I read the Bible, prayed to God to ask Him to deliver me He did. Firstly I would pray to God for something then ask the consultant, and because I had already asked God I would be given.I was not given all things I asked for; but God wants us to be patient and has answered me on my prayers and more good things are coming because I believe in him.

He says that we should thank Him for everything as according to 1 Thessalonians 5 verse 18, where God says: in everything give thanks; for this is the will of God in Jesus Christ for you. Knowing what God wants me to do, took some time, I made mistakes, but Our God is a merciful God who forgives; so asking Him for forgiveness, as he forgives us.  

There were a lot of things that the mental health system was preventing me from doing; such as not being allowed to talk to people about Jesus (evangelism), which I felt that God wanted me to do; teach my children about God; but I thank God now that through believing in God and not giving up and prayer help by family and friends have sorted out so many problems.  

Now we are a joyful family, we love each other, and the problems that I had are gone, and when I face some problems they are not too big for God. My relationships are good and we now have a very big family and circle of friends; both those who love God and those who do not know Him. However, I am careful that I seek my counsel from those who believe in God, and when I have sought that counsel, I check it out with God’s word, pray to Him and inquire which way to go.  

God has given me a ministry as an Evangelist and I am so joyful. God is still teaching me so many things and I continue to believe in him up until our lord Jesus Christ comes.God is also teaching the whole family, and other people we meet and friends.  

My advice for anyone, whether having problems or not is to receive our lord Jesus Christ, follow Him, do according to what He says in the Bible, read your Bible daily, and find a true Bible believing church.

Teach your children about God all the time but make sure you are practicing what God commands you to do.   Man shall live by every word of God according to Luke 4 verse 4 where God says:

But Jesus answered him, saying, " It is written, Man shall not live by bread alone, but by every word of God." I pray to God that He will help us on this journey of knowing Him as a true God and not get doubt from the devil through his angels in Jesus name.God bless you. In Jesus Christ, God knows my name.